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This weekend was very well-spent with precious baby.
We went shopping for our clothes, trying & commenting on each other's clothes (:
It was a really nice feeling to go shopping with money & with the mindset of buying something!
I wished every weekend can go shopping! hahaha.

Also we went over to Changi Airport to send Andy off to Taiwan for army training.
Too bad the viewing gallery is closed due to renovation ):
And i hope we'll be going changi beach or something to see aeroplanes soon!

Today whole day stayed home but i enjoyed his company.
I just want him with me.

But, he just booked in ): Got to wait 5 more days alrdy... yup, every weekend is like tt.
I'll look forward to next weekend, cause it'll be very fun!!!!! =D

I love you baby.
I wished & hoped you'll be my husband for life.
Cause i only want & need & love you! Only you~

i still love you despite all.

i want to scream out loud.
just scream and vent out all the emotions in me.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i know i shouldnt yet i did. all my stupid mouth.
i'm such a no brainer. dont think before i talk. i deserve a big tight slap for myself. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he is stressed with his army life. yet i'm adding burden to him.
i really want to be the gf who encourages him all the way, who supports him.
yet i think i'm the one who hurts him the deepest & his greatest anger.

i cant be the gf who dont meet him when he book out.
i always want to take any chance to meet him. is it too much for him to take?
can anyone tell me how to give him peace? give him his own time?

i tell myself, i cannt give up here. i must learn. I MUST learn to be his good girlfriend. really.
I cant give up & i wont give up.

It's all my fault... yupp. all mine. so i'll need to cool down. cannt be so short-tempered.

yup. i'm physco-ing myself to listen to myself.
i shouldnt put the blame on him.
i should reflect on myself instead. yes i should.

i just want to see his smile...

still, i love him.

it will only be perfect when i've overcome all the imperfections.

Perhaps u have no idea what had happened.
It's ok baby. I am throwing tantrum.
Allow me to have some time for being a petty gf, for nt being understanding to u, for being unreasonable.
I know u are very stress in camp, I know I know.
Let me be wilful for awhile.

Actually I also duno what the shit I talking abt.
Sigh.

Yupp, this is the time when I have no one to turn to :(

mayb I should just throw e cookie away...